too dead to answer my phone so strung, I'm passed in my sheets can't lift head to the tone still jump starts heart beat 1 color is all I can see it feels like torture to wonder a love is harder to feel but its all I remember (break) a dose a breakfast of leaves I don't wanna remember horned with a morning tree I still think of last summer so held down from some words that are thrown don't wanna believe that I'm stagnent no one else seems like part of my zone I looked inside of me, I was absent f-force force me to do s-something I slacked until honey slapped me my soul through the door is leaving love's done I've missed that feeling how could you do this to me, I know that it was my fault I wannna hate me for this, I can't hate you for this but I can hate him for this, and its all in my dreams its all in my dreams, can't stop thinking of you can't stop thinking bout him, closure didn't exist I just need a fix, I just need your fix you we're pushing me out while you were pushing him in you were blowing his mind while you were shoving me out I was crying alone while you were naked with him he was grounded in love while I was grounded in tears I was watching you talking every night through the screen I was high on a void, I felt like I was no one everyone's having fun, everyone's so in love what is happening to me? how could this be my fault? and you're crying on me and I'm crying on you and it makes you feel bad, so you go off to him and I'm sobbing alone thinking "where is my home?": and I'm needing my love but I live on my own and you're leaving me here, leaving it all up to me but you tell me that we have more days to see f-force force me to do s-something I slacked until honey slapped me my soul through the door is leaving love's done I've missed that feeling f-force force me to do s-something I slacked until honey slapped me my soul through the door is leaving I looked in me and saw nothing

oh no, I wake up, believe I'm someone else, I feel I'm so far from me, I think I know what is real, the sting its piercing my day, can't eat my head throbs, I'm tweaked out dehydration pries my eyes open but I smoke a little more oh no, I can't let this get to my head, but fuck it, I feel good, so I take more, till I'm so sore easy, so so easy, cause these pills can change my mind so I'll pop a couple more warping walls, distorted skies cause I swallowed, smoked, and snorted I feel my soul growing I feel my soul glowing I feel my soul going down down down down I feel you much closer I know you're back for thirds but you keep going back and forth how long will this last for? I need my fix, it will fix me feels so good but it's so temporary I need her here she will fix me feels so good but she still leaves me hanging

is there sympathy? no! I caught carol cryin' and I don't feel a thing been workin' for 5 days now, but carol has me beat, been tortured by her brain for far too long blame it on the onions in the air, I can't smell them, did they disappear? (red wet old eyes now I know just why) she's so rude, emitting negative frequencies! I'm so glad I see her tears now I know she's at least human I caught carol cryin' bitter bitch breakin' down oh carol, did I do you wrong? your hatred gaze disgusts me oh carol, I'm just trying to be nice! but you don't understand... you think I'm insulting you when I'm kind. oh carol, why do you emit hate for no reason? yeah, here I am talking this shit I know that at least I have a reason whoa! she's up and down! something's wrong yeah something is wrong I'm just tryin' to get my job all done now she's being nice, now that's a surprise! yeah, her mind is gone I caught carol cryin'!

I don't feel what is right but I know that I do have feelings inside and you know I am not stupid so what are you trying to hide? I guess you're just as confused as me I know where to go, but then I don't know I don't know what you're doing I guess I shouldn't think about it I can't just act like I'm stupid cause I can't really handle this I know you still care, so what are you doing? I am still right here, so what are you doing?

sweet jesus, i'm fucked up sweet jesus, can't feel love from you drink your blood, eat your flesh sweet jesus, i feel love but it aint from you i'm upset, i don't understand sweet jesus, i'm so bad to you are you there? can't see ya sweet jesus, you've disappeared like you were never here and dad tells me that i will go to hell and mom praise ya cause you are comfortable i didn't want to live in that denial so, sweet jesus, why wont you open up my eyes?

sloppin' through the mud living's such a treat I want to see your blood splattered on the street oh please just tell me why you did that dirty deed ya looked me in the eye and took her straight from me some friend, suck mine living without life it feels so dead to me I want to see your eyes but you're across the street I'm going apeshit here can't feel those good feelings and I pray that you'd want this just as much as me my friend, come back my friends you pulled some swift mind melting shit when I saw him standing next to her I tripped yeah I started blacking out from so much fear yeah I felt my life melt through my skin and hair I can't clear my mind always on my mind No I don't want that old shit cause I feel like I am new and I don't want that BS but I always think of you you say its all your fault but I still hate his guts but please just tell me why I cant hate you at all? I'm Living With Out Life I'm Living With Out Life Yeah I'm falling into what I always fought but ya still feel bad when someone gives me thought and I do feel sad that it was all your fault and you make me mad but still you turn me on you're making my mind melt, feel my bleeding brain are ya faking this whole thing? am I what I felt? going up then down, leading me nowhere always on my mind, you're always on my mind

just gimme one bump girl one bump to change this dump world so gimme a taste of that gaze a minute meeting to help me un-twirl cause it can fix up my head-space a bump of your gaze can send me to space don't think of the history cause there's nothing my mind can't think like trying to understand just what you think of me cause you just stung me right inside my brain but still your one look can change my whole day she's turnin' round she's turnin' round I'm so un-bound she's feelin' ground its a funny feeling, isn't it? thinking 'bout me gone I know you can't handle that cause I feel the same exact way but still I go to sleep alone everyday we're connected but we're broken in 2 can't accept it cause I'm so drawn to you water flowin' right out your eyes you're feelin' bad cause you now realize I feel something that feels so right but its blocked by a different life you're the only one that made it to my mind I feel it from your eyes I feel it from your eyes scorpion girl is she from this world? scorpion girl this psychic sync got all blurred is love worth such hurt? cause I'm still synced to scorpion girl

my eyes are drooping down to very bottom I let my dopamine control my movement living, my consciousness loves a good feeling a dose is something to keep me worth living my life is perfect when I've got someone too bad I never seem to keep a someone I know someone could keep me on my feet someone left me for someone so much better a thought can rip apart my fleshy brain funny someone can still make someone cry I can't think of someone as a friend no more I love your girlfriend more than you do all these creepy thoughts of him loving you oh the pain of loving lasts so long, I'm so tired of hiding my true feelings all these creepy thoughts of him loving you

don't look at me that way, that way if you wont stay here today, today natural drug feels real, I think keeps me above of me, of me I hold me down I would, I will to keep it calm it's hard to know that you're my friend but not my girl but we're both our favorite come to me pick up my feel then leave what do I do when I feel you why do I miss you if I'm nothing is he better than me than me if I can feel this am I so wrong you're full of life you opened my view we lived a sample of real color it changed so fast from real to weird does real shit last pass through me like I am clouds of dust leave me be when I need someone here block me out from your wonderful life I'm nothing to you it feels like you have died okay, d

there are misunderstood ideas of not caring, they take hold so they're gonna mold ya. but this paper's so green and I love it so much cause I need it so much, cause that's what they told me. and I need to stay high and I gotta get by, so I gotta good buy. whats the price? spark up what I sold ya! cause I don't care, I'll stay here, and wait here is it true what ya told me? it always feels bronze, never enough, tryin' to smile when I'm bummed outta love and I'm tryin' to scream but can't feel my voice knowing they're here, I'm so over that point but a ring on my phone tears me from sleep zaps my memories of dreams, its time to open my eyes to my suicide, my death with pride you call it life Yeah, I'm not in that zone where I wanted to be, but I needed the time to restart my life I am down so deep, burned broadway into me now I lose my Zs, cause I lost her in a dream this week is glum but got all I need and you aint around, cause you couldn't breathe I had to learn but now I've learned everything and I see life's soul when you're looking into me so many drugs but they're never enough, never enough to replace your fun. yeah, you're comin' around and we're havin' great times and everything's right, yeah everything feels so right but a ring on your phone tears you from me zaps you to your other zone, it's time to open my eyes to your suicide, but your death is mine is this my life? And your not in my zone like I need you to be cause we both had no care, now we're both just stuck here I am down so deep, burned broadway into me, No matter, awake or sleep I'm livin' in a dream this weed is glum but I got all I need and you aint around, cause you couldn't breathe and I had to learn, but now I've learned everything and I see life's soul when you're looking into me

I want the right attention cause babe I feel so wrong I need the right affection feels right when you're by my side I can't afford to live I'm spending all of my dimes on shitty pills to slip out of mind cause I just don't feel special no more I'm out of sight, not having you is killing myself amy stay away don't fuck up a good thing i'm not in a good place please amy stay away from me Oh no, no no no no Not me, oh no oh no oh no That's not me, fuck when life just stays consistent I seem to take all my time and waste it on my thinking "why me?" "how can this be my life?" when I should be playin' guitar I'm anxious waiting for love and these girls just fuck around they bore me so bad it makes me miss ya more it's so sad cause no one can replace what I had amy stay away don't act like I'm your babe amy stay away don't get the wrong idea amy stay away don't think you're in my range amy stay away you don't get who I am amy stay away don't think that I'm this way amy stay away I'm so wound up, fucked up amy stay away there's nothing left of me amy stay away don't make me turn from my ways built up, a blue pain (don't wanna feel shame) a quick touch, I'm not sane (don't wanna feel pain) I'm broken baby, I'm broken baby come back and save me, come back and save me So back up amy, back up amy you're not a lady, you're not my okay, d, d, decide please baby

everyday I am happening to slip into unconscious states but just a pinch to still be stable fuck a pinch, lets get into it cause I'm so fucking bored and this shit can make life seem so able somethings odd, this acid isn't real and my minds still stuck on you like a permanent K-hole snort a line, cannot feel a thing cause my minds still stuck to you and my life seems out of tune cause I can't be next to you all the humid nights just sitting alone sleepin' underwater, nothing to help me float I'm just a friend it just feels that way I know its not what you want to hear but shit this aint what I wanna feel apartment dreams, I just trusted love the way you dressed the room, I'd watch you'd glide, and I was in a trance we shared our lives but it wasn't fair cause that's before I knew what you were so I drowned in my mistakes after this, even after you did this you mean so much to me so much that I can barely think all the humid nights just sitting alone sleepin' underwater, nothing to help me float all my fucked up thoughts when I am alone if you were here, I'd feel so at home I was such a fucking slacker while you were such a perfect lover now I cry I my stupid eyes out cause I never can keep a love right no I never want to see this motherfuckers face you took the best thing that ever happened to me yeah, do you know what it feels like to be replaced? I fucking hate you and I hate that you think I shouldn't life's a fucking trip but this acid isn't real I'm living without life I used to be the only love in your mind I'm living without life, so tell me babe are you his or mine?